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Back to square

2010-06-16T21:21:00.000+08:00

http://bobopox.livejournal.com/

2010-03-28T17:13:00.015+08:00

Hmmmmm I will not be blogging at this space anymore, toddles

2010-03-21T22:39:00.001+08:00

How much more disappointed can I get?

HOW MUCH MORE?!

2010-03-21T11:41:00.003+08:00

What can I say? Wanting to meet you can be something you don't really feel like doing. You spent time with others. I don't know how I feel.

School is starting tomorrow. I don't want to go. I don't want. I don't know why I feel so uncomfortable, uneasy, scared and weird about school either. Maybe I just suck at adapting with a mindset of only the past.

The thought of lectures, tutorial, the canteen, people.. I don't know, I just feel scared.

Homework. Not done at all. Project. Halfway through. Sigh.

2010-03-19T20:22:00.003+08:00

I should update more. Having such poor memory, I want to remember things.

Went to do project today. I was ready for all the researching, essay writing. I don't know if I will be changing class not, but I want to give it my best for this project. Heh.

Anyway, I still haven't contact the school if I am changing class. I hope everything will go well when school reopens. I know I am an annoying and bothersome student to a teacher particular, and even wanting to speak to him make me scared. But he is my greatest help. I am grateful.

One week could pass so fast, and there's only 2 days left before school starts.

How much effort I need to put in for Lit and Math, with the upcoming PW tasks.. But I guess it will be okay. Because I know my interest in Lit will pull me through. :)

I love writing. I love reading. I love poetry, novels. I want to write. I want to create. I want to touch people's hearts. I want to learn to see things at a different angle. I want to explore more aspects of Lit.

Funny, I could imagine myself as a Lit teacher sometimes. Hahaha.. well that is a thought though.

Had a nice catching up session with Cons today. We sat and talked with the perfect weather. Wedges was great. (Did I got it right?) We saw many cute little things. Those cute little things make school feels really cute to me. I shall take a picture of it next time.

I need to be more positive, I need to open up to my real personality, regardless if it seems crazy, unglam, bimbo, over-hyper, random, senseless.. Whatever it may be. At least I am true.

Not meaning I have been hiding my true self, but school just drains me out.. It is not much of a big deal, cause I know it is up to me to see things in a different light.

Oh oh. I want to watch When In Rome!

I need a haircut. Long fringe seems so irritating and boring. Can't wait to have a shorter fringe! Hehe, it does feel more bubbly. Yay.

2010-03-19T01:32:00.005+08:00

I don't know if you still visit this space of mine, but if you just happen to see this, do you realise how long was the last time since we really talked?

I made effort, to ask you out, text you, call you, but either the replies I received are really curt, or there wasn't any replies at all.

You know you are being curt, I am sure. You know I don't like it, you know I mind very much. But why did you do that?

When I said bestfriends, I meant it all along, without any doubts. I was so happy when you told me I will be one of the friends you will bring along after secondary school. Because I know, I am one of the very very very few, who can hear that from you.

But.. look at what is happening now?

I feel sad, uncomfortable when my friends told me about the strong bonds between their bestfriends. Not because I don't have one, I do. But it's just, I'm tired being the one who is doing all the 'keep in contact' stuff.

I feel really sad, when we don't know what's going on in each other's life. I want to share with you, tell you all the shit which happened, how much school really drains me inside out..

But it feels like we could no longer relate and connect with one another as well as we used to. I don't know if it is because of the different schools we are in now, or the different environment and culture we're exposed to, or the different people we see and interact everyday. I could see the difference, how lively you are when you talked about your school with your school-mate.

And I could only laugh, and listen. Maybe, we are all different now.

I don't want to accept the fact that we are.

Many times in school, I think of the times when we used to be so close, how we slept through lessons, how time flies everyday. Sometimes I hope you will be in my school, and I'm sure I won't be labelled as 'emo'.

I don't care if I am not being understanding enough, clingy or desperate. Cause you know me. You know how much I value this.

I don't want to our friendship to drift. I really miss you.

So true

2010-03-18T22:49:00.001+08:00

We can’t waste too much time missing something or someone from the past. We accept that life’s never constant; things change and people grow apart. Yet we can’t stop thinking about how good it used to be; afraid that we’d never experience it again, afraid that we’ve already lived it and lost it.

2010-03-16T09:18:00.009+08:00

Did I?

Yes I did.

I did all the best I could for the test. I was so nervous, all the answers in my head kept twirling around with no directions. So it turned out that my answers proved how much effort I put in, but it wasn't a good one. So I was rejected.

But I know my standard is there, I know I could do it. I know I have the ability to do it. I never felt so confident in my ability before. I want it so badly.

But they won't know. Because words are just words.

I'm too disappointed, in myself for not proving myself well in the test, when I know I can do it times better.

I treat this very seriously, but do they? Many people have helped me in this, I'm really grateful for all and how much they believed in me.

Though I didn't manage to get there, I know I am already, in my heart.

I am so proud of myself. Because this is the time, when I really know what I really want, what I am fighting for, and how much effort I put in.

Yes I am really upset, but I am not going to let this bring me down.

I'll work harder.

I will take pride in whatever I do, I can do maths. If double the effort isn't enough to catch up with the others, I put in triple.

And it is an A I am aiming for my econs.

2010-03-13T15:52:00.002+08:00

NO I'M NOT GIVING UP, AND I'M NOT BREAKING

I KNOW WHAT I REALLY WANT AND HOW BADLY I REALLY WANT THAT

I AM GOING TO GIVE IT MY BEST SHOT AND DO ALL MEANS TO GET THERE

I CAN'T JUST WATCH IT GOES BY, KNOWING I HAVE THE ABILITY TO DO IT

BELIEVE IN ME BELIEVE IN ME

I FIGHT FOR IT I WILL INSIST!

I'M NOT RUNNING AWAY BY CHOOSING ANOTHER ALTERNATIVE

I KNOW WHAT I REALLY WANT AND I'M GOING FOR IT

2010-03-07T09:25:00.003+08:00

I was feeling really down that night, and I felt so much so much better after meeting them up. I don't remember when was the last time I felt so assure, calm and cheery since I started school. Ky said so many funny things, I miss laughing at them everyday in school back then. Talking to them made me feel so.. myself. What beats more than having support from your close friends? :)

You have to go somewhere different to discover yourself. This is so true.

And I realise how bad I rely on Jingwen. Though its bad, but I don't want to stop doing that. I am so used to her being there for me, standing up for me, settling things for me... Haha.

Haha but jw don't expect me to kick the habit hehe :)

2010-02-26T21:23:00.003+08:00

I shouldn't have challenge H2 Chem just because I like the subject in secondary school. T_T

Its so tough! AND I MISS VB TRAININGS I REALLY MISS IT SO BADLY!!!!

Ah I still miss the green line people very much.

2010-02-21T22:57:00.000+08:00

I wish I was smarter.

Slience

2010-02-18T17:35:00.004+08:00

This is like my dream room! So warm and cosy~

Today is a really tiring day. Part of me regret not taking more Art subjects, because their timetable ends like earlier everyday? Thats for my school. Haha yes, I'm lazy. ;)

Tmr's a friday yay I will upload pictures if I can :)

2010-02-12T20:21:00.005+08:00

YAY HOLIDAYS!!! :D

Anyway its Chinese New Year already!! Let me start with a short update.

Went to chillax with Jingwen after my school today. Anyway! I saw some clothes I like. JINGWEN NEXT TIME LETS GO BUT TGT! Haha the korean shirts. And I had a very full and great lunch!! FRIED RICEEEE WITH EGG :D Saw CY too! Very unexpected but I still couldn't get his name right, even JW can remember better than me man!

Ah and we have been spotting pretty girls today too hehehe. But we missed Valentine's Day cause I wanted to have my lunch too badly.. WAIT FOR ME TO COME BACK TO WATCH TOGETHER HOR!

Go her blog to see our beautiful pictures ;)

OH and I finally get to meet my CG classmates today! YAY some are into K-pop! Though they're not into DBSK.. hahaha! Things got a lot better today and I'm looking forward to NMA :)

And Magareth made me something and I was so touched really.. :)

Totally went Zzzzzzz after seeing the tutorials. I totally fall asleep after revising like 5 pages of Chemistry? -__-"

Dad drove Bro to school today morning, I know I won't give up. :)

2010-02-08T19:58:00.001+08:00

We go to school every day. We learn pointless things, but we are never taught how to love ourselves. We aren’t taught how to make moments last. But I think the most unfair thing, is that at the end of high school, we are tested on something that we were never taught. We have to stand in front of each other and say goodbye.

2010-02-08T19:18:00.005+08:00

Ever experience a strong feeling of sadness when the person you missed so much waved goodbye and you realise you are alone standing there rooted to the floor with nothing but tears, you started wondering when will be the next time you guys can meet you wonder how long you have to wait

You started feeling hopeful and started smiling when you see them but deep down inside you are so sad because you know things are not the same anymore and you miss them so much there's nothing much to look forward everyday all you wanted is to be with them.

All the times spent together, you think about it almost every minute, you wanted it all back so badly

It's only the new year, but I'm counting down to Christmas

But the more you want time to pass quickly, the slower it passes.

It sucks to tell yourself everyday that tomorrow will be better. Doing that for 2 years?

The Best Boys

2010-02-07T12:59:00.004+08:00

I showed Brother some videos of DongBangShinKi singing live, and I never expected him to say that Micky is very passionate when he sings, and saying Junsu is very talented!!

And the best was, he said they sang with their heart.

Imagine how happy I am, hearing another person recognizing my favourite boys' talents.

It has always been my dream to watch them sing live than anyone, any singers.

I want to watch Skins!

2010-02-06T11:30:00.018+08:00

I think I didn't really buy much new clothes for the CNY! Is 'much' the right word? Hahaha. I need to improve on my english cause GP really seems scary!

Okay back on CNY.. its on Valentines Day! Okay thats random but hey thats cute! Anyway, I'm looking forward to CNY although I don't really have new clothes to buy, but the main point of CNY is to catch up with relatives and HAVE FUN right!

Its a new year, a great new beginning.

I don't know if I should type down what happened this week cause it is kind of personal, but to sum up school:

I can't catch up with the Chemistry lectures, the lecturer is too fast! But arghhh thats like my favourite subject.
There's still chinese lessons, I can still write chinese essays! YAY!
I think Geog lectures are fun and the lecturer is really cute in her character.
And of course NEW MEDIA ARTS!!!

I do sound positive and more cheerful right?

There's many other things which happened in school, but I think I'm stronger now. :) Thanks to those people who cared! I will work hard in IJ. :D

"You need to live up life and do crazy things. Otherwise, it’s just a bunch of Thursdays strung together."

-The Break Up

I'll blog more later about this week!

So thankful I attended Wednesday chemistry lecture! Hahaha (:

I like the things that I like, but I love everything. There’s more choice in like, cause even the worst things have things to love in them."

Cassie Ainsworth

YAY F-I-N-A-L-L-Y GOING TO GYM WITH BRO TOMORROW! ^^

2010-02-02T22:00:00.008+08:00

'Impossible' is one of the most disheartening word, ever.

Maybe, the most.

I miss Yl so much, I guess this is the first time I regretted so much for not studying hard enough to get into the same school as him. I really regretted.

School ends at 5:10 tmr. I seriously hate it.

Maybe I made the wrong choice in going to a JC, its like I don't even remember the passion I have for my dreams anymore. I really feel like giving up.

When the teacher at JJC told me that my appeal is almost impossible, I don't even feel like continuing anymore. I never felt so hopeless than ever.

2010-01-31T13:00:00.003+08:00

Words are powerful things. Don't ever, ever say something that you don't mean. Don't make promises when you are not sure if you will fufill it. DON'T. EVER.

Sometimes, you just just wish that person would miss you back the way you miss them.

Fear

2010-01-30T19:23:00.005+08:00

I don't know what to type down at this space. Now my back hurts so badly and I'm having gastric but I'm lazy to get dinner. Just as Hy says, I won't buy my dinner. Lol.

I don't know what to say about school. I hope the orientation on Monday will be good. It ends at 7, I think I would be drained out by the morning. I missed Mass Dance, which was kind of sad. Lol.

Ah.. I really don't look forward to school.

And I can't join volleyball because woodlands is so far and I will be so tired and wore out everyday. :(

And its just I realised how much I actually like volleyball.

-

What a boring Saturday night.

Do you feel lonely?

2010-01-29T23:11:00.000+08:00

2010-01-27T09:39:00.000+08:00

Danny Gokey's music made me feel a lot better.

Yuniik

2010-01-25T11:20:00.022+08:00

Thanks Ratna Twiggy for everything yesterday really!!

And being such an awesome model! HAHA.

Anyway, thanks to all who took pictures with Yuniik bottles! :D

You guys are great!

Do visit the website to know more about Yuniik!

http://yuniik.com/

The way Charmaine turned down the interviewer was cool. I like. Haha!

It was a good night out together, starbucks next time!

Will update about the trip and photos next time. :)

And we saw Serli and Jinmei! Thanks for the pictures! :D

I like Serli's hair colour! I WANT TO DYE MY HAIR MAN!!

And of course, all time fav: RATNA!!

Haha so kawaii

A line is just a straight curve.

I feel like shopping for CNY..but lack of cash!

JAEJOONG

2010-01-23T14:42:00.003+08:00

I dreamt of Jaejoong yesterday night! Awwwww~~~
He is my ideal hehehe.

Still love Dongbangshinki the most ever ever.

Me: I had a good dream yesterday you know I dreamt of one of the member in dong fang shen qi.
Bro: Thats true. It was a dream.

LOL.

2010-01-21T02:02:00.000+08:00

They say people come and go. But the truth is, no one really disappears from your life. People never really leave, their roles just change.

2010-01-20T00:33:00.007+08:00

I feel so dumb.. so careless.. so muddle-headed again after talking with JW.Another long and heartfelt talk. I'm scared that coaches are going to worry for me about the latest dumb thing I did. They will start off as being shock, laugh, shakes head, wonder what am I thinking, worry, get tense, then think of ways to help. (Well I hope there ain't a need to resort to the last step..)
Because during times like this, no matter how long the gap is widened, it's amazing how they still continue to care from the heart. So I don't care to be portrayed as someone who is gullible, blur, someone who gives silly answers in their eyes, cause it's one of the luckiest things to know them. :)

阿雯,28. 坦白.. says:
love seems too shallow to describe your feeling towards me alr.

let go of yesterday

2010-01-19T13:06:00.007+08:00

fly, open up the part of you that wants to hide away you can shine forget about the reasons why you can't in life, and start to shine, cuz its your time, time to fly.

How this song and 'so yesterday' used to be my everyday-must-play in primary school. Hilary Duff <3

BigBang

2010-01-17T12:33:00.005+08:00

TOP is super charming man. 2:21 and 2:33! Especially the part when he raps.

I always like BigBang's music videos, especially HaruHaru.

Off to watch Nobuta Wo Produce.

Just a matter of time

2010-01-16T22:07:00.011+08:00

It was really really surprising on Friday, while I was working, Hy appeared at Subway. It was so surprising, so unexpected, I was so happy, I really really can't believe she came there! So glad I could personally do the bread for her. Haha.

I was really smiling and laughing all the way, it was good talking about the old times. I won't forget somethings we talked about, I really hope we could stay as this close even when we're in different schools..

Pics on Thurs with Mun and Chun and all :

Since its all over, it's pointless to blog down how careless and dumb I was when I was filling up my JAE choices. I only filled up 5 choices. Oh well... BUT PLEASE LET ME GET INTO MY FIRST CHOICE!!!!!

Sooner or later someone else will come and make everything alive again and even more beautiful then you will forget before.

Thankyou

2010-01-13T02:13:00.005+08:00

My brother is the best man. He's right, I should be firm about my decision. I must be brave enough to go for my goals. Thanks for some advices given but I guess I still want to go for something I really want to. =)

Well though I don't know if i could make it through the first step.. I really hope I can!

Its crazy when my bro nodded and believed in me. ENTJs.. Haha. :)

Change

2010-01-08T23:58:00.013+08:00

I'm really nervous and afraid about tmr!! I'm going to receive my results tmr, and I know it well in me that there are a few subjects I won't do too well, maybe its most of the subjects. Ah. Its so hard not to worry! I hope for the best!!

Dad and brothers have been like teasing and joking about results day, haha. Dad was so cute on the phone when he says just see how everything goes.. We joked a lot on the phone and his laughter with a mixture of 'kakaka' and 'hahaha!' were really spastic!

And some pictures when we went to NP open house :

Ignore the awkard posture of Jingwen and focus on Kokyong, this is a cute picture too! :D

Actually its heart-warming to know that he remembers we're friends for 6 years already!
Hehe and how he says 'So long already, I'm used to it~' when being asked about our height difference =)

Hardcore BFs

So the moment we sat down together at her house, I started to pour and come clean with everything that has happened and heart feelings. It felt a lot better and so much lighter. Heh.
Nothing really changed even when there's a long gap of not meeting up. :)

Haha! Good picture right!

Cute.

HAHA!

Oh and its a nice experience being a 2minutes DJ that day! Haha, it was cool though I choked many of my words and were quite irony too.. Haha. But me and Jw both agree that DJ suits Ky really well!

I'm actually interested in NP's FMS, its something I always wanted to do before O's. But deep down I still hope to go to JC. Ahh~ Lets see how everything goes tmr.

Whatever that has happened and is going to happen, lets stay positive. =)

"Develop interest in life as you see it; in people, things, literature, music - the world is so rich, simply throbbing with rich treasures, beautiful souls and interesting people. Forget yourself."

Henry Miller (1891 - 1980)

All the best to all tmr. =)

2010-01-07T19:43:00.004+08:00

"What would life be if we had no courage to attempt anything?"

Vincent van Gogh

Loveless

2010-01-06T17:38:00.001+08:00

Feels like

2010-01-06T02:21:00.006+08:00

(fuckyeahdresses)

The dress, the stockings and the shoes..

I LOVE IT.

Live.

2010-01-03T10:45:00.021+08:00

Time flies, and next week is results day already!! Ah. I am really worried about it honestly I'm really scared. Okay I should stop thinking about it, cause everything is set and there's nothing I could do. So nervous! I hope for the best!

I miss school. :(

Some pictures on a great day to share:

Haha picture of the year hahaha! (Limbo is the star)

It was funny when we could not find the right bus stop back, so we went around asking some people if they know where the nearest 502 bus-stop, and we finally got it right from this security guard! So he wasn't sure about it too, and he was actually calling to ask (if I'm not wrong), until he saw 502 driving pass him, and he went '502! There is the 502!'

And his facial expression and actions were so cute!

Haha its always perfect when you have your fav shopping partner with the same shoe size

Then we boarded the bus and took many random shots.

Then we started this 1 to 10 picture-snapping and laughed so hard.

HAHA so we are poking each other cheeks with each other's fingers which represent 1.
It was so funny because we were scared of ticklish so we held each other finger to our cheeks (HAHAHAHA)

This actually a 10 :D

Passing by places, we decided to snap them down.

(I realise I have this new comment from the girl in my pictures!)

Some beautiful pictures above take by Constance (anyway she updated! Like miracle but yeah)

Time passed fast that day I remembered.

There was this customer few days back, while waiting for the bread to be toasted, me and him stood and waited for the few seconds. Then he suddenly said 'Happy New Year' to me. I was so surprised and that really perked me up. :D

My manager sent me message with a smiley in it! Haha. :)

'Cause time will pass and she will be fine.
Thats the way it works.'

Stay

2010-01-03T00:09:00.005+08:00

Many has come and go. But this time, I want them to stay. I don't want change. Sometimes I feel afraid. I know the paths we would be taking are different. I don't want to be alone. Advices telling me to make this holiday worthwhile, letting myself to be exposed to different things, not that I don't want to commit and be sensible, but I just want to spend more time with them. Time doesn't seem to be enough, and when it is slowly nearing, feeling insecure can't be helped. Many of the best feelings happened with them, I don't want it to go away.

I lost trust in promises, but I want to believe in the present.

It's a state of bliss, you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry

2010-01-01T13:19:00.007+08:00

I just listened to Pixie Lott's new album (Turn It Up) and it is great!
I never thought I would love her songs. And she has good vocals too!

Cry Me Out is a must listen. ^^V

(I can't wait to meet my Dai!)

Hello 2010

2010-01-01T00:10:00.005+08:00

I just created a new space and deleted it, cause I will miss my old blog here! Hahaha.
Okay I know I'm weird.

Anyway today's the last day of the year, and tommorow shall be the start of a new chapter.

Some pictures out with Rt few days back:

Ah I want a collection of white dresses! I think I'm starting to like white dresses, though black has the effect of making one looks slimmer, but white is such a angelic and beautiful colour which pulls it off. Heh I want to get a white dress with white ballerina stockings for the new year.

I will type down my new year resolution tommorrow. :D

Oh and hope everyone will have a great year ahead too. ^^

Love

2009-12-30T22:58:00.023+08:00

http://givesmehope.tumblr.com/

Today, I got locked in the bathroom. I am physically disabled and I couldn’t get my fingers to unlock the door. I almost cried and felt so humiliated. A girl in the bathroom slipped under the bathroom stall in a floor-length gown and unlocked it for me and ruined her dress. Kind strangers GMH

When I was seven, I missed the school bus and didn’t know my way home and was crying on the pavement. A group of 17-18yr old guys on their way to school saw me. Instead of laughing and walking by, they cheered me up and dropped me home by looking in my school books for my address. I’ve no idea who they were, but their care GMH.

Today, I heard a story on the radio about a little girl who sold ALL of her toys on Ebay. Why? She wanted to buy bulletproof vests for our county’s police dogs. She is only 6. Her selfless, caring, innocence GMH

This website is awesome.

Can you feel how amazing and overwhelming these little things can be??

There are too many touching stories inside, too many I want to read on, too many that touched me. Not big stories big dramas big people, just little things, little stories, happening around the world that could make you feel so hopeful and warm and.. really really touched. I don't know how to express it what I'm really feeling, but love is a powerful thing, and it has never been gone.

You never know how powerful one little thing you did could impact another's life,
It could be one of the best things to one person's life.

The stories in the website are wonderful. So beautiful. There are many wonderful things happening in the world, so wonderful that I want to be in it, so beautiful I want everyone to keep smiling, so amazing that I want to be a part of it. Love is so great that I really hope everyone could experience it. This world is so beautiful.

If you do read the website, you will understand the kind of love that I'm talking about. =D
It is amazing how much hope from something so small could bring to people.

So thankful I could be here, in this world. So thankful there are all these wonderful people. So thankful love existed. So thankful I can love.

I want to keep loving.

=D

Aaron's Rubix Cubes

2009-12-28T12:30:00.003+08:00

I need to type these down, when my memory is fresh still.

Visited Godma and godsiblings in KL.

It was long since I last saw them, can't remember when was the last time I last went to their house. Anyway, my little godsiblings are super adorable!! Haha. But I only got to really talk to them during dinner time. OH we ate this bak kut teh, which was very very good! I enjoyed the most when I sat beside them and they were feeding a dog, and Alvin actually boasted to me that the dog only ate if he's the one who fed. Haha and a lot more ah~ oh oh also Aaron did his rubix cube for me to see! It was nice!

Then the two brothers screamed and joked with one another on the car every minute, so funny.
Okay, it was really fun!

Frankly, I never see them like that before, I didn't know Alvin could be so spastic, when he's so polite when I first talked to him. Lol they are totally different when they di-siao each other, super cute.

Then after dinner, I think Aaron knew I was pretty interested in Rubix Cube after seeing him played. So we were sitting down, I was watching TV, then he started turning his fav Rubix Cube, and he suddenly passed it to me after he turned all the colours right.
My expression immediately went.. :D

So I guess the best part of the whole trip was this, I was hoping to spend more time with them and the girls.

Sad my phone no batt then I can't take pictures! >_>

It's Christmas

2009-12-25T11:02:00.009+08:00

(grayskymorning)

It was late at night yesterday when I saw this very beautiful, very shining Christmas Tree in an apartment across my block. It was shining so brightly, though my view was only very small and far. It was very beautiful!! I should have look at it longer, maybe yesterday night will be the only chance it seemed so beautiful to me.

I want to be in those countries where Christmas is something very magical and warm season, you could really feel Christmas. It snows. Doors opened and people send their greetings with smiles. Families gathering around a big table with food they prepared and just enjoy Christmas. Everything just feel right.

I imagined a lot about Christmas with what I saw on internet, books, pictures, TV, what I heard and what I knew. I know there are still much more to that, I want to experience it. It will be a total different feeling to what I've been feeling all along.

-

Anyway, thankyou to Qs and Hy who went down to orchard with me for Yuniik! I'm grateful for it really. I don't know if I sounded any desperate or did I gave any of them a feeling of guilty if they turn me down (I'm sorry if I did..) , but really thankyou for coming down!

Haha so I gave a shock by tabbing Bro's shoulder with 'Merry Xmas', and he actually asked his friends if they know me! HAHA. well I think they are tired from the day, and when Qs said he wanted to purchase the bottle, one of his friends was really surprised haha. I saw the number of e-mails written down. Anyway it isn't because it's my brother, I really think the bottles have this individuality in the design. :)

Hope it will go well today too.

I'll blog more when I got the pictures.

“ Sometimes you need to step outside, clear your head, and remind yourself of who you are and where you wanna be. And sometimes, you have to venture outside your world in order to find yourself.

— Gossip Girl

2009-12-24T14:14:00.009+08:00

Merry Christmas to all~ ^U^

Get your Yuniik bottles at Far East Plaza today!

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Chase dreams

2009-12-23T22:01:00.002+08:00

Something he has been working on so hard, so long on, is finally happening. How he made everything possible, I'm amazed and deep down I really admire his attitude.

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There is this person whom I open up completely, the first person who I sit down, took time, and tell her about how I want my life to be like, what I want to achieve, what I want to do, my dreams and my thoughts. She told me things about me which I wasn't even aware. She was the first who I talked so much about everything to. Things we talk about aren't those superficial kinds, but something alot alot more than that, something deep. (but obviously we still tease and laugh over random and silly things) I confide in her almost everything, things I never wanted to tell anyone. I got exposed to many things, sometimes I feel myself becoming different. Days when we just sat and talked about dreams.

Sometimes you could feel that things are changing with no reason.
Just feel like redo-ing all that again.

Maybe this is good afterall

2009-12-22T01:19:00.006+08:00

Okay I know this blog is getting boring..

Me and Yl met this unique salesgirl today! So I was looking through the bangles, and when we were intending to leave, she stopped us and asked us why wasn't I buying it. Haha. And when I told her I only have 2bucks with me, she didn't believe me, still wanted to check my purse! LOL. Anyway she realised I was a student and actually wanted to sell it to me 5bucks lesser.

The next time will be better for sure.

Bro wants me to go gym with him tmr again, when I just had a tedious workout on sunday! Seriously it has been very long since I do gym, and now my muscles feel sore and hurt man. Ah but the new year is coming, maybe it's time to put in effort to lose weight. T_T

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Things are a lot better now, after talking to Hy. Oh oh and btw we were crazing over the phone over Kame and Yamashita, hahahaha. It's hard to believe that we were crazing to each other about Jap guys. Kame is really cool! Ah why did the Gokusen Movie close down so soon?!?!

Kame is the one on the left while Yamashita (the one who Hy likes) is the right one.

Kame!

Much time has been wasted on trying to figure out things.
Life's too short to brood over things, there's so much to smile about. ^^ V

2009-12-20T23:34:00.003+08:00

3rd Asia Tour Mirotic was great. I finally watched it yesterday. In fact I was so slow, to only watch it only now. They are still so great. Some performances were really overwhelming and heartfelt, well because I like them so much. Watching the songs and dances, I felt really excited and was clapping and squeezing pillow and giggling in front of the screen.

How I wish I was there. I will get my chance.

Well maybe we aren't honest enough, we hide behind those so called masks.

Second Chance/Shinedown

2009-12-19T01:42:00.006+08:00

(loveyourchaos)

As we grow older, it becomes difficult to just believe. It’s not that we don’t want to, but too much has happened and we just can’t.
>>Now and Then

2009-12-18T01:11:00.006+08:00

Caught Avatar today. My eyes were really tired and Hy being so lame kept hitting me to scare me. And JJ's laughter sounded so alike as some of the creatures, hahaha.

I just don't know how to say to you all the things that I always want to.

2009-12-17T01:53:00.002+08:00

Such pretty, simple room.

Ovens are dangerous

2009-12-16T01:01:00.015+08:00

Daughtry's songs are awesome.
Have you listen to his new album, Leave This Town?
The songs and the bonus tracks are great.

I like September.

The contented Constance after shopping, haha.

I actually put my left hand into the 350 degrees oven today, really don't know what was I thinking man. I think one of my collegue really thought that I'm so weird and blur. My plastic gloves on my hands turned like it's gonna melt if I didn't remove my hands from the oven earlier. It was scary, and it was lucky that nothing happened. Phew.

Oh I think I broke a tray too. Sigh.. I don't know how I did that too. Ah. I must try my best to avoid all mistakes tmr.

2009-12-14T23:07:00.009+08:00

I’ve learned that people will forget what you said,
people will forget what you did,
but people will never forget how you made them feel.

-Maya Angelou

It was a mistake. Feeling apologetic doesn't help, there's so much left.

I was so wrong.

Concidentally

2009-12-13T11:29:00.004+08:00

Sometimes I wish for a same time at a same place.

via Gatekeeper

2009-12-12T00:41:00.000+08:00

If I could make one wish, it would be to have no reason to make one.

(via runawaytrain)

2009-12-11T16:44:00.013+08:00

It was a hot day yesterday.

So me and Yl boarded a bus which we were supposed to alight two stops after, as told from an officer at the station. But we chose to trust the bus driver who brought us so far away from our destination LOL!! But its funny how we could still laugh so much after knowing we're lost and that it was a long way to the bus stop.

And then I realise.. MY STAMINA REALLY SUCKS!!!

Anyway, we still managed to reach the place but we expected too much from it and the lift was scary.

Oh and I really couldn't control my laughter on the train that my saliva spilled or leaked, I don't know which's the right word. Okay I know thats disgusting. All because of the bluetooth names la aiyo see Yl your fault la though you were accurate HAHA. Omg now I recall it's still so funny

I don't care Yl you own me one 'Meet the Chipmunks' trip ;)

So I realised how bad my memory really is at work yesterday.
The customers could tell me their choices of sauces or vege this second and I could really forget the very next. =.=

2009-12-10T00:34:00.010+08:00

Yl came to meet me after work today, had Roast Chicken. Then we went to see fishes in fish shop together with Tina, and haha Tina always wanted a aquarium! But one could cost so expensive. I saw many species of fishes today, some I used to see so frequently when I was much younger, but I have long forgotten. Some fishes are really pretty!

And Tina's children are really adorable!! Bet Yl feels so too. Me and Yl could not stop smiling and laughing at the doorstep, they're really cute and funny! It felt happy and warm to see the joy and enthusiasium in them you know. Something in them I never seen in other kids. Haha I will remember.

Ah.. some heart-warming scenes today. Some happiness could be just so simple and contagious. Haha.

I'm really into these lately heh

2009-12-09T02:56:00.006+08:00

Many of their old photos are being posted online, and it was funny to look at Yoochun's spastic ones lol. Guess I should rewatch their variety shows, all time fav.. Happy Together!!

The episode with the 5 of them together was so much funnier than the one which only has 3 of them present. Haha.

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I've been sleeping so late and waking up late lately, waking up at 7AM sounds crazy to me now. Lol.

I dropped my house phone in the afternoon. It made a loud sound and could not work anymore. T_T

Working tmr, hope I will have the same shift with Tina for some days this week! ^^
NTUC late shopping with my collegues after work few days ago and I like it. Heheh.

2009-12-07T22:42:00.013+08:00

Victim

Today was good. Finally Cons is back from her camp. We stayed at this Subway which is really warm, pretty and comfortable. Then our usual routine. :)

I'm having Subway almost everyday lol and I never get sick of it!

Sometimes, it just needs to shut off.

What's worse, new wounds which are so horribly painful or old wounds that should’ve healed years ago and never did? Maybe our old wounds teach us something. They remind us where we’ve been and what we’ve overcome. They teach us lessons about what to avoid in the future. That’s what we like to think. But that’s not the way it is, is it? Some things we just have to learn over and over and over again.

-Grey's Anatomy

That's why Yl likes Grey's Anatomy so much.

2009-12-04T01:36:00.000+08:00

Change ; we don’t like it, we fear it, but we can’t stop it from coming. We either adapt to change or we get left behind. And it hurts to grow, anybody who tells you it doesn’t is lying. But here’s the truth: the more things change, the more they stay the same. And sometimes, oh, sometimes change is good. Sometimes, change is everything.

— Grey’s Anatomy

2009-12-01T22:57:00.004+08:00

2009-11-30T23:16:00.003+08:00

Because many days have passed, meaning the release of results is nearer, I'm afraid.
No confidence in many of the answers being submitted.
I need to be mentally prepared.

It felt long, just 5 days before I last talked with Yl.

People feel happy, when they are really themselves, not being insecure to be judged by whatever they do or say. Being with people who knows who they really are, accept them and understand them. They could never be more real. They say what they like. They make ugly faces just for fun. They sing and dance when they like it. They laugh from the bottom of their hearts. They express and open up themselves naturally. They don't hide. Time passes so fast. For some moments, they could forget what's always on their minds. They feel happy.

I don't feel the same anymore.

2009-11-26T21:29:00.010+08:00

Taking a risk

These days kind of passed fast. Met YongLi yesterday after work, it was funny!

So both of us were were ranting to each other about our work stuff, and Yl's one always so funny la. Then we went to Carl's Jr and I can't stop laughing about everything when I was ordering! Then the person actually asked Yl, 'Your sister?'

Imagine Yl's reaction.. Haha!

LOL although it wasn't a good thing, meaning I look older.. (okay it wasn't the first time), but it was so funny! But our dinner was sure sinful.. I should have know better that we would be very full. It's like.. half of my pay for that day was gone for dinner! Lol.

So a comfort for me and Yl.. 'Just take it as once in a long time'
HAHA!

..

Pictures found in my phone taken quite sometime ago.. while we were all shopping for Prom. Lol.

That day was one to remember as well. I could remember the excitement and fun in the store. =)

Remember how this picture was taken? :)

I missed the thick ends of my hair. Lol.

Ah.. tired.
I want to listen to Carrie's newest album now..

Thinking through all these while, plans changed and maybe I was not suitable for what I always wanted. I regretted, for my badly done plans. But everything has passed now and I could only wait for time to come. Ah.. I hope for the best.

Sometimes, it can't be helped to dwell over somethings even at busy times. Meeting with C was good. I feel.. hopeful towards the future. Dreams, ambitions, plans. It really feel meaningful and just happy when you're doing something you really like. I want to achieve mine man.

But on the other hand, what is done about those dreams and ambitions?

It's the passion within and how badly you actually want it.
Building up, it is getting stronger.

Few years down the road, these things and one's mindset could change though, how predictable?

I'm finally bringing my spoiled computer down to fix tommorrow wohoo! ^^

2009-11-24T23:13:00.005+08:00

Learn

The laptop's connection is really weak lately and Mum's urging me to get our computer down to Simlim to fix. The computer was spoiled for half a year or more than that I think. >_>

I hope things will go fine tommorrow. It seems stressful to me now. Ah why do I think so much and worry so much. Okay a right mindset is the first step.

Unconsciously recalling

2009-11-21T10:28:00.024+08:00

Prom Night

Before I start.. I want to thank K that day for her make-up!
It was really very nice of her to help me and I really like it very much ^^

Everything was very rush when it was about to end, and I can't really recall much what really happened.. :( but still it's a night to remember for sure.

My team-mates. Thinking back, all of us really went through a lot together then,
I could still remember those times.. It wasn't easy but we still made it thru :)

HAHA YL YL YL
He's one of the few who really understands me well.
Well.. I'm really thankful. =)

RATNA KATIKA!

Ah it felt just warm with Constance before Prom Night, nubbie remember? :)

AHA MRS WONG!
She's a very unique person to me and one of the cutest as well hahaha.

SEEEE! HAHA

JJ!

He really pampers me like a brother man! Haha!
Umm.. thanks for everything too you know. :)

The best of the best.

Seriously I will miss talking to Jiaying la!

Victor looks real good that night! I really like his outfit and hairstyle hahaha

(:

the YYs haha :)

AH this is funny cause I didn't know Yihan was behind me and Justin lol!

AHA Chinyuan :) I can still remember his jokes lol!

Woohoo Charmaine Ong!!
Wa lucky she approach me for a photo or I wouldn't have taken even 1 photo with her man!
We need to catch up soon kkkk haha the crazy us

Ms Ong!

haha Shawn looks cute here

HAHA Kokyong! He's my hairstylist for that night haha!

HAHAHAHA! Taken by HY hor hahaha
This picture somehow reminds me of those match-making port-folios LOL

There're more photos in my cam, I guess I upload in the next entry :D

It was a great night.
But I didn't take photos with some people! T_T

How I wish I have a better memory, haha.

I will miss school very much.
It feels weird that we are all graduating of secondary school, that everyone will be moving on to another chapter. It still feels very sad though it's still possible to meet up with classmates or friends, but to be spending time together as a whole may not feels the same anymore.

...

Sometimes it may be hard to connect to one another like how it used to be as we all changed, experience new things, adpating to new environment, meeting new people.. People whom you used to be close with, could became distant and awkard suddenly.

Actually. I'm scared of forgetting many things cause my memory is really bad.
I want to remember everything..
At the same time, I'm scared of being forgotten.
Not literally being forgotten as a person or by name, but another sense of being forgotten.

Things can get so depressing man.

4E2 '09 :)

I guess it's time for me to look for a job and re-make my lost ezlink card.

2009-11-19T22:27:00.003+08:00

Jihu

With Feline :)

I got so much so much to blog about..
Prom night.. Chalet.. Graduation..
but the connection is so weak tonight and my dizziness isn't helping me any. T_T

It's such hollow and empty feeling.

I left earlier from chalet today cause my flu and cough were really killing me. And when me and ratna walked past the sea, I said something like,

'The sea looked extra beautiful today'

and she replied,

'It's because we're leaving.'

True. When I was at the train, I felt so regretful leaving the chalet earlier, and so upset over my weak immune system that I missed the previous night's water bombs activties with my classmates and mc donald with Vic and all during midnight. I was sleeping all along!!! :(

And the other previous day where I went off for tution's graduation dinner, I missed captain's ball games with them.

Captain's ball was always something we always play during PE lessons..

I will miss all of them so much.

Ahh..
Today's really a long day, with misfortune of me losing my stuff AGAIN.
My eyelids are really heavy now,
I'll blog tmr.

2009-11-13T21:42:00.007+08:00

Scripts

Seems like all the music files in my MP3 are messed up and it can't be play properly :(
It can only function as a radioplayer now lol.
Ah.. my songs. ><

I like Marley&Me.

It always feel really warm when I talk to Yl one to one. How many people does make you feel extraordinary.. It was really long ago when we used to sit beside each other, and that he was always so right to know when Mrs Chia is going to ask us questions lol lol.
So much to spam later ^o^

Monday will be prom night already.
So fast

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I like this song

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2009-11-07T14:14:00.004+08:00

My MP3 is weird.

Just right after I put in my new songs, all the songs are gone and now when I reconnect it to the USB, all the songs are still there, but all disappeared when I disconnect it.

So now I have to wait for it to load and transfer. T_T
It's going to take so long!

Thinking about the time I have after O's..
how I wish I could go travelling!

Heh after studying Venice, it seems like a really different and interesting place for me and px told me yesterday that her sister actually went there before! (Wow..) And said that Venice was beautiful and different. Aw...

Then we talked alot about countries and I realise both of us have so much in common! We hope to go to Western countries, cause the different cultures and way of life. Px likes HK very much too, so I guess mostly is because she's a cantonese and of the hk dramas she watched since young. ( and of cause the culture of Hk haha~)

Well if I got the money.. Lol

Saturdays are always a hard day to concentrate on studies lol

2009-11-04T21:48:00.013+08:00

Depart

O's coming to an end.. two more papers to go and it's done.

Some papers were badly done, disappointing. Today's geog paper was bad, I was stuck at some of the questions and I could not recall much, all I want was to sleep. So many marks gone :(

Hope my paper 2 will be better.. I really need it.
But at least now is less stressful, and I could sleep with lesser worries haha.

Some pics during the study week which seemed so long before lol.

So much time has passed.
And it seems like everything is slowly coming to an end.

...

I have been anticipating this for so long!

Guess these 5 days would be used to make up for my badly done paper.
I hope my memory would not fail me.

2009-10-10T01:18:00.006+08:00

Imaginative

Being a lil more sentimental,

Though some may still be going back school for lessons or studying.
but let's agree that today is the last official school day.

Time could actually fly so fast.

I took the personality quiz again, and this time I was clearer, calmer and more patient. Haha and the result came out really kinda unexpected but yet still expected. So I proceed on reading about the facts and the characteristics of one. Maybe.

I want to read Death Note manga after O's.
Can't wait.

Wait.. How did I actually start taking interest in things like that?
Hahaha

Hope the next post will be me marking down the end of O's in big satisfaction.
2 more weeks.

2009-10-05T22:53:00.004+08:00

...

Wrong interpretions,
wrong inferences.

2009-09-26T23:45:00.003+08:00

Yessss mooncakes season!

I'm feeling sleepy..
but no way am I gonna miss wo cai today!! Haha
There's a special part on xiaojingteng. Guess Jingwen is anticipating it too!
:D

2009-09-26T00:21:00.026+08:00

Train back

Something reminds me of shinki today..

If there's wasn't this lawsuit thing, will they still be performing everyday at Jap/Korea? Will all the k-pop websites be flooded with their news, pictures, videos? But when this lawsuit issue was exposed, it's worrying and shocking, about the hard times they went through, and the strong front they need to show to the public.

And recently, quite a number of their long ago pictures were exposed online..

I could still remember this so clearly haha
I rewatched it like 4times? Haha

They looked so young then..

Still remember Jae actually confessed that he and Yunho felt awkard after shooting this drama, hahaha!

It was this banju drama which made me start liking them.
Haha.. I could still remember how much I actually like them how much they mean to me
I really miss them so much

During this crucial time towards O's,
and I'm still thinking of my fav boy band.. haha.
Very bad.

This week was kind of a self-reflection week,
on my results, people, myself, past

Somehow I felt glad today though I got scolded, my facial expression showed I wasn't feeling alright about it, and Vic somehow comforted me with his singing of 'You are beautiful' without him realising it. Haha maybe he's just doing it randomly, but it was really something nice.

When teozhang came home today, he put 3 packets of tissue on the window panes, and when I asked him why, he said ' let this 3 packets of tissues be your motivation ', and I knew what he was going to say next, something which happened to made him sentimental today.

He bought the tissues from a auntie who can only see from one eye.
One who will value the one dollar more than alot of us.

When you think you're so unfortunate, think again.
Many of us is already so fortunate, having so many things that others couldn't have, but we complain, we blame, we wondered why things are being arranged in a way which make our life difficult.

Maybe we should try observing what's going on around us more
When we see someone physically less fortunate than us, we may sympathise, feel sorry for the person, but do we really take note? Do we really even try a bit of understanding what the person is going through and reflect on ourselves?

When we donate our money, have we think of things deeper and further, not just donating our money to the person, feeling sympathtic for him or her?

When we tear seeing people more unfortunate than us on tv, do we just tear and then forget within days?

Well, you may be thinking who will actually think so much over little things?

When my bro told me this, I thought through alot, and I look at myelf and the people around me, it feel so sour. Really.

I think I'm really bad at expressing my thoughts in english, haha.
But if you're good enough, you will know what I'm trying to say.
My bro and Hy, they are turning points

--

The very first things always leave a impact, be it good or bad.
Somehow I wish I could always remember.

2009-09-19T15:21:00.010+08:00

This is us

Left with 1month to O's.. 1 MONTH!!!!

Just a month more.. and all of it will come to an end
I have all the time in the world to do whatever I want after that.
I MUST ENDURE~~~

I can't give up now, though I really don't know how to work on my Amaths
No more time to lose hope, there's only time left to work on what I can
I must reach my expectations!

--

While I was waiting for the lift yesterday, I saw this little girl wearing kindergarten uniform crying, being scolded by her mother for being too talkative in class.

Then her brother asked their mother if he could get a drink from the provision shop and she actually rejected him in a pretty pissed tone at first, but in the end he still managed to get his drink. But as the girl cried more badly, her mother actually stopped scolding her and actually comforted her in a motherly way.

Then we entered the same lift and this is the best part man

The little brother turned to his sister and said something like this,
'Jiejie don't cry already ah, see I let you drink my drink okay?'

And its was really sweet. The little brother still wiped his sis's face and the look in his face was.. sincere. And he told his mother to help him open the drink so that his sister could drink it right away.

Long-winded story, lol
This is heart-warming to see, especially after a tiring day haha

I SLEPT SO MUCH TODAY ZZZ

2009-09-17T18:29:00.025+08:00

My first time doing practical for a exam and it's really bad for me. I think I have exams anxiety, and I think it's because of the many mistakes I made during the previous papers, thats why.

I spend like 10mins reading the physics experiment and I still couldn't get the question! Chemistry was better but it was also bad. I redid the first step for 3times? And I made so much careless mistakes! AH then my graph and plotting are totally a goner and I got no time to do the last 2 pages of phy experiment.

Now I wonder if I could even pass my sci,
when I have tution to help me. T_T

Haha but I'm still in a pretty good mood when I should be busy reflecting about how pathetic I am. So I spend sometime watching youtube videos heh heh and it is good. I guess I should watch Shining Inheritance after my o's :D

The mvs of the drama is kinda cute and the songs are GREAT!
So check out the fabulous OST :
Click click

Oh and this is one of Lee Seung Gi's music videos which is kinda cute although it seems like a mini love movie. Mvs like these are longer to show a deeper and clear meaning of the song

Time is really running out, be it Olevels or the time left to spend with your friends and classmates. Somehow it really feels different after sec school, like we are all leaving our comfort zone and growing up slowly.

Things will change, people changes when they are put in a different environment, with different people, meeting new challenges and experiencing different things. But in life we learn as we go.

AHH there's no more time for me to lose hope but yes all I can do now is to give it my best shot. :)

Ya hoi ngor tor luek leng koi pin dou mo yong. Ya hoi ngor gor yen zao hoi gum..
Hou chun?

2009-09-16T01:25:00.003+08:00

It's been long since I cleaned up my mailbox
Thanks mw for the long ago pics
I should check my mailbox more often next time

2009-09-13T13:57:00.008+08:00

Open up

2hrs of warmheartalk and dinner
We were so hungry haha and yesterday was really gooooood :)

Kind is only another word to replace silly.
I could read it from their tone, their expressions.

I didn't know I'm actually so much more.. worse than I actually thought.

Do you know how much I hope I could be angry or piss or fed up with those things which happened?

2009-09-12T21:33:00.000+08:00

2009-09-12T15:23:00.006+08:00

I surfed facebook for the longest today I think. Haha.
Interesting.

when sorries don't work anymore

2009-09-11T18:25:00.007+08:00

My original

Being greeted by Yl's eventful morning made a good start of the day, though it doesn't seem so to him hahaha. We started ranting to each other about our stories haha and he just makes me laugh all along. Lol. Lunch today was funny although I don't like my food. LOL

Long hair..
Actually I couldn't really remember how I used to look with longer hair, so I glanced through my pictures and.. maybe I really do miss longer hair.

I don't even know how to react man.
Be it I mind or I don't, I just let it be and such an impression is created.
nor hou gui.
zengman nor yew type cuo mo? haha. nor hou gua ju lei ah

2009-09-07T12:09:00.011+08:00

Maybe it won't matter that much anymore

GREAT SONG

A delibrate bad picture taken by my brother lol

Some over-due pics

mw

QS~

HAHAHAHA AND OF CUS JJ :D

That was a big strawberry.

So fast and now is already September.
...
I'm wondering how am I going to catch up on Amaths. T_T

When everyone around you are so outstanding and excellent,
you can't fail.
Expectations. It does make one tired.

'we're sucha group of insecure human beings'

2009-09-05T00:01:00.003+08:00

So convenient?

I screwed all my papers. And I really mean ALL.

It's so ridiculous how I make stupid retarded mistakes in my every paper except humanities.
Mistakes you won't expect anyone normal to commit.
It just proves how much common sense I have, ha.
I'm not lying, if you know what kind of mistakes I made, you will laugh hard. Even I think its hilarious. Sometimes I really wonder if I'm really dumb.
Depressing.

So I was thinking alot, maybe it's part of my character to make mistakes even in the simplest things, but no matter how hard I try not to make stupid and dumb mistakes, I ended up making worse ones. Sometimes I wonder if I'm still in this state when I enter adulthood, I don't think I could reach any of my targets or rather getting anything right and proper.

Maybe I'm not working hard enough.

It's really nice to have someone who's always true and constantly reminding me about what's REALLY happening, what's my priorities and what is a need and what is a want.

It's kinda true, when he told me I'm actually the one who need others by my side, not the others. Haha.

With Qs (:

WHAT THE... I JUST TYPE ONE WHOLE CHUNG OF WORDS ON VB AND ITS GONE DUE TO MY CONNECTION.. ZZZ

2009-08-31T22:09:00.001+08:00

你们还好吗？

请你们一定要坚持。。

永远支持着你们的心不会变

真的好想念好想念你们

只要少了一个

东方神起就不会是完整的

因为只有你们五个才是最真的你们

Hwaiting

2009-08-31T20:55:00.004+08:00

My wisdom tooth hurts so badly :(
My upper teeth got one, then my lower one has one too. AHHHH~
It was really painful for the entire day until I drank green tea and arrived at jw's house.
Hahahaha

Yesterday was a complete fun. It was Rt's birthday mini gathering and gosh we were so full after everything. It was really nice when we go over her house and started playing around hahaha hide and seek! And we got ourselves so wet in the end lol. Qs! Did we do enough workout today? 0.o kekeke

I really laughed out loud yesterday, I really felt happy, haha (:

Some pictures with ky and jw the other day.

I like Katty Perry. HAHAHA

I think I ate too much cakes these 2 days thats why my teeth is so painful LOL

I WANT TO WATCH SHINING INHERITANCE
I DON'T WANT TO DO REVISION :(

You never once bother

2009-08-29T15:35:00.006+08:00

If I could

Cause I'm not you, I can't understand how you really feel inside.
Same goes for me, you can't understand how I feel cause you aren't me.

But I tried to understand you, put myself in your shoes in every situation.
Then I realise I'm really bad at this, cause others understand you so much better than I do.

I think I know why he did that, trying to isolate himself from the others.
The problem doesn't lie with any parties, but it's just that he feels tired being with people who don't understand him, he just want a break, some personal space for himself.

It's really like that sometimes.
It feels weird, expressing your thoughts to someone who don't really understand, but think he/she does. And sometimes some close friends can be like that. They thought they know you, but actually they do, but maybe a part of you only.

So in the end, it ended up everything being wrapped up.

Being labelled or pictured as this or that you know you aren't, that really feels sucky.

I admit I'm a sensitive person. I think alot about what people say, or rather people I care, though I don't show. And realise, maybe somethings they accidentally slip off their mouths as jokes, it's not really meant as a joke actually. Maybe it gets hurtful sometimes.

But by remembering and thinking alot, it's not called holding grudges.
It's just part of a character I guess?
I also hope I could use the memory space for that to rmb my science and math formulaes
Lol and cute memories worth remembering.

But nah, letting this kind of minor thing affects one's relationship with others is dumb.

I was really touched, when I realise my 24/7 bud is more biased towards me.
Really, I felt that maybe I'm needed and so.. safe suddenly.
It's like someone really cherishs you and not taking you for granted.

How many people in this world would treat you genuinely from their hearts?
Not having thoughts of hurting you, making use of you or lying to you
Always putting you before themselves always believing in you
And always be willing to give you the best even they're left with nothing in the end?

Well.. it's not even a bit of tough to count.

Haha I'm actually kinda blur, I can't find my directions at times.
But I'm glad I'm not so blur when it comes to things like that lol.

Sometimes it's really upsetting, when you really treat one person with your true heart but they misunderstand you, or taking everything that comes for granted.

Maybe I take things for granted at times, and for this I actually feel scared.

Haha I realise what I just typed was so topic-less! Haha emotions overload lol.

AH.. I'm looking forward to tmr!
A little warm gathering with JJ Qs Rt Hy Jw Mw.
I got so much to tell JJ hahaha

Haha such a cute picture to share. ^^
Oh and I saw Jason yesterday! Been so long since I last saw him.

Time to watch Shining Inheritance.
Sayo~

Love Drunk

2009-08-27T23:28:00.004+08:00

Whatever it takes

Wednesday was a loooong day for me. I spent the afternoon with jw and watched GossipGirl for almost the entire afternoon?! Lol.

I actually wanted to retake my chinese, but I don't know why I ended up unregistered, and then in the end I can't retake it. -.- Well I know my score isn't really bad, but it's just, I know I can get the result I want, thats why I want to do it again.

Oh and I ONLY DID 1 QUESTION FOR SECTION B PHYSICS!!!
DON'T ASK ME WHY I ONLY DID 1, I REALLY DON'T KNOW WHAT I AM THINKING
10 marks gone. :(

Maybe I have exams anxiety.

Lol but I'm happy too, I did 2 questions for sectionB chem. Hahaha learning from your mistakes is more impt than brooding over it right hahaha

I read the news.

The lawsuit is really getting out of hand and I'm really afraid. I really can't imagine them disbanding, though I believe strongly that they will stay together as one.

It's unbelieveable sometimes. I really love them from the bottom of my heart. They made me changed so much on the inside. The thought of them going separate paths.. it can't be.They are so near to perfection to me.

I don't want to blog more about this entire issue. Depressing.

Yunho's upcoming drama!!
They have ventured so far, no more banju drama, but real drama series. (:

Actually I like him with this hairstyle more!

LOL OWNNN

I watched the teaser and aiyo so cute! Jaejoong's one is more of emotional, sentimental type but haha yunho's drama seems so funny and cute to me aiyo I want to watch!

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I went to some places today. Places which I'm supposed to be very used to. It's almost 4 years, like that. It was such a struggle then, getting over. I was so young then. Now looking back, I wonder where did all my courage come from. Haha.

Someday, we will grow up, taking individual paths. We start to do things on our own, and we don't depend on somethings as much as we used to do. Be it people, or anything.

I don't understand why are you behaving in this way.

I thought you know me, I thought you accept me the way I am, though you dislike the way I do things sometimes. I thought you believe in me.

Things happen for a reason
Have you ever wondered why is this happening?

2009-08-18T20:53:00.011+08:00

She misses

Let me start with random things :

I like Adam Lambert. The second runner-up of American Idol. I know I'm slow I'm a lagger. Haha. But his performances were.. AWESOME.

I cut my 1/4 of my fringe into some retarded straight cut. Itchy hands but haha at least its isn't really so obvious. I want to cut hair again urghh

It's irritating, how much I study, I just seem to only rotating in circles, but not moving forward. friday is prelims. -.-

Eyebags are a hardworking student's trait. HAHAHA

Yl's headphones.
This time I took without his permission but he don't mind anymore lol

She's one of the biggest gifts

Then one of the days it's Vic's birthday! ^^

Could you read what is it? HAHA you're really smart if you can!

Shy darling

Oh and then tuesday it was study session at the library.
All featuring cons

My weekends. Haha so I immediately told big fat to carry my backpack the minute he met us for dinner lol he was so surprised at how zi dong I was HAHA oi c'mon what are siblings for?! Then when I told him to take care of my bag so it would be safe, he's so kl he replied me saying, if anyone would want to steal my bag, they still got to make an extra effort to dump it away.
LOL the way he expressed it was really spastic la

Look at my half-dead baobao

At ah teowz's school studying or rather enjoying the breeze and pondering

Tution!

Adam Lambert's live performance No Boundaries.

It's really a great performance.
I was so amazed by his vocals and the emotions in him when he sings.

I'm too tired to elaborate on anything else.
I miss life.

2009-08-09T20:25:00.004+08:00

Shining Inheritance

I'm in pretty high spirits after watching Shining Inheritance so here am I again haha. I kept telling myself I would wait for O's to be over then I shall indulge in watching this but its too long to wait! Well that explains the very high ratings in Korea.
Haha okay I promise next time I watch this, it will be after O's

Yes I know I watch many dramas be it Korea Japan Taiwan Hk but this drama left me a big impact like how Princess Hours did then lol. Okay maybe Princess Hours is more memorable for me hahaha but I can't wait to watch finish this man heh heh

Some interesting facts to share, you know what is the Japanese 'study hard don't fall asleep' method? Haha. Is that they actually use a headband or something to stick a scrubber (those you use to wash clothes I guess) over their forehead! So when you're going to put your head on the table, the pain will wake you up immediately. This is really extreme!

I shall stick to my all time-fav method which is coffee!

So many things I haven't do..
Study marathon tonight!!

2009-08-09T18:08:00.007+08:00

A little while more

Hang on for a little more..
I can do this.

She changed her name in my phone to,
'AH BO'S FOREVER FAN'
HAHAHAHAHAHA right?! JINGWEN BAOBEI? ;P

2 more months, it will be Olevels and school life will end very soon.
Don't know when it started, I started to like school, even the daily routines became cute to me suddenly. Waking up at 630am every morning doesn't seem so depressing now. Even the most boring lesson, I'm not putting my head on the table anymore (well at least alot lesser).

My classmates, I realise it fast when one of them is absent, which I don't really do in the past. Haha this is really an improvement for me considering how much of a lagger I am lol.

Friday was fun, although the bonsai jokes are really so depressing, but I really feel like the old times, where me and Yongli talked so much together. Lol the INFPs really do clicked well, I'm referring to Hy and Yl. Cause they add on to each other's sentence so well huh!! LOL!

I like having them around. =)

WHY DIDN'T I HAVE THE PATIENCE TO LEAVE MY HAIR TO GROW LONGER?!
Haha thats Yoona from SNSD by the way and there's really cute pics of them in Reiting's blog heh heh

Chupei sent me this online:

Everything will be fine.

U-know say:不是我们说出口的不要相信

所以他们不会解散的

(:
I smiled immediately at the msg. Chupei had never think of them disbanding, cause she believes in them even the ugliest news come out, her heart never changes

Cause we like them so much, we believe in them completely,
so why are we even being paranoid at times like this?

The members were sure upset by what's going on
but still they continue to work hard, for the fans who love them

They're the best.

MY DBSK HAHAHAHA HWAITING!!!!

I went to 2uangels and saw this.
Thats why Jaejoong is so special to me ^^

"Words" - A letter Jaejoong wrote for the members.
"You are my tattoo" is a letter Jaejoong wrote for the members during their fourth album..

Note: This is not a new one but during the Mirotic Period. It has been rather low profile and was only released recently.

Jaejoong says:

To: Yoochun
Yoochun, you don't say much usually but writing this down using these kind of words make me a little embarrassed. I know you have been very tired recently, worried and forcing a smile out - I feel sorry. We are always together and the other members are unable to see your sadness but the hard words have to be said out. If you're tired, tell me, I will help you. I will also listen to all your troubles because I am always by your side. You can tell me anything and everything - the soul of my life. Yoochun, I love you.

To: Junsu
My cute Junsu. Because of you, we are DBSK; Junsu, the sound of DBSK. Kim Junsu, hyung really thinks you're important, do you know? I have never forced you to do anything and you have always treatedd me seriously. Sorry, but I love you, my cute little brother, Junsu. Thank you, and sorry, as comapred to many others, hyung really understand your past, and wants to help you and that is why please continue working hard! I love you, Junsu!

To: Changmin
Our small and cute cat, we haven't been making you do the cooking recently, sorry. Because of you, we have almost become closer, frustrating. However, we totally understand it is due to your fatigue and your lost energy when you occasionally tease us and command us to do stuff. We are all almost crazy.. haha.. always with a good heart and full of innocence, Changmin. You must continue working hard next time. We are always protecting you, if you're tired, you must say it and we will help you. Forever the youngest, I love you.

To: Yunho
Jung yunho, Yunho, Yunho, our leader, Yunho. Are you tired recently? My, Yun, Ho, the reason he became the leader is because he has to tolerate all the hardships. Whenever I see your fatigue body, I think that way. I want to help shoulder some burden but am always unable to.. I know when we received the award, the other members were crying but you were holding it in and only hid in the toilet and cry when we reached home. Therefore, thank you for your letter but what was the content in the letter? "Sleep earlier, if you don't sleep I will kill you.." Yunho, there would not be me if not for you. My other half, Yunho, I love you.

Source: [heyjj]
Translations: thesexy-orange@iscreamshinki.net
Shared by: iscreamshinki.net

The Yunho's part is really sweet.
It's really heart-warming to receive such letters from someone close to you,
at times you aren't really feeling happy.

Lucky, cause there's always a light before you
shining on you no matter what it takes

DongBangShinKi

2009-08-03T13:36:00.011+08:00

No way

IT WAS SHOCKING.

I haven't been surfing k-pop websites recently, and the first thing I saw on allkpop today was rumors about Tohoshinki Dongbangshinki breaking up, news about Junsu, Micky and Jaejoong having lawsuit against SM.

The breaking up are just false rumours, phew. I was so freaking relieved that the rumours of them disbanding are fake.

It is scary, a 13 years contract, when they only earn abit out of the total profit. Plus the never ending work schedules and activities. And still they need to smile and sing in front of everyone like everything's fine. Who won't get tired?

And maybe, what the fans see, be it on TV, youtube, videos, shows, their performances, are only surfaces. What happens behind the scenes, we never know.

They won't break up. It's clear from their eyes that they truly love each of the members. They really want to be with each other, no more no less.

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Tons of revision yet to be done.. The medicine is making me so drowsy!
I have only around 2 more weeks to prelims?! =.=
2 more months to O's. ENDUREEEEEEEEE

I hope they are alright, really.

2009-08-01T16:46:00.002+08:00

I know this blog is so dry and boring
Haha I will upload the pics next time :D

It was really heart-warming to see Mum buying all the herbal herbs(?) and all the cooling tea after knowing I have sore throat, when I actually woke up giving her the cold shoulder.

Not a good week. Not much revision done too.

Lol ever heard of 'look at yourself before making negative comments on others'?
Some people don't really think before they speak, hence making a hurtful statement without knowing it. Funny is they think it's alright.

Heard of 'everyone is beautiful in their own ways'?
or 'No one is perfect'?
and 'everyone has their own feelings'?

I exceeded my duration of using com already!

2009-07-29T21:31:00.004+08:00

今天是老爸的生日

要一直一直健康下去哦！

还有天天都要笑得像当像我一样act cute

哈哈哈！

今天真的真的好开心

老爸也是啦，今天的他。。帅！

妈妈也煮了很多食物!

好吃！哈哈大肥今天也超好笑的！

他一边吃，妈就说‘吃小口一点啦‘

哈哈，不是担心他吭到，

而是因为吃太快就是会肥。

哈哈，他们好今天还蛮可爱的嘛！

重点啦!

我发现，虽然我和爸爸的话题不多，

但当彼此在旁边时，都会感到一种默默的开心

不说话，但还是希望一直能在彼此身边

因为那样就已经很足够了。

可以和家人在一起的时间，

我真的很珍惜，

尤其是老爸

其实我真的很希望和老爸坐很简单的事

像是每天一起搭巴士，一起看电影，一起煮饭之类的

哈哈哈

还记得小时候和爸爸一起去游乐场，

坐过山车是，只有爸爸会喊，

我只会享受感觉

之到老爸说，

“要大声喊出来！才会爽！”

哈哈，从此我坐过山车是，一定会尽全力大叫！

我记得，那天我和老爸玩到天黑哦！^ V ^

小时候真的很开心

我真的好幸福
好幸运。。：）

好爱你们

2009-07-27T23:52:00.004+08:00

Actually I have many emotions inside,
I feel like expressing here,
but I don't know how to.

Sometimes I do forget how to express though.

Haha, 1 more day to dad's birthday :)
It says 1201am in the laptop now~

2009-07-25T15:38:00.006+08:00

Just let it go for now

I have a scary dream last night.

Hope they will take a break soon, they have been going working non-stop!!
But I guess they hang on cause they have each other haha

Really thankful

2009-07-23T22:41:00.002+08:00

Shining Inheritance

Travel graphs

Mp3

Geography mindmap

It feels really good, to scream and play ball together
so long since I did that

C'E is right,
why care about others, what matters is you like it anot
Sometimes it just seems like we care much about how others think of us
and forget that we should be living for ourselves, not others
heh

2009-07-16T23:17:00.001+08:00

The reality.

2009-07-11T14:53:00.004+08:00

How long?

Yay I finally completed most of my emoodle.
Although I hand up all the assignments late, but late is still better than nothing right!
And I think this is the first time i actually cared about online assignments! Haha

haha Junsu!

I really like Jaejoong's hairstyle!

Aiyo so alike!

It does feel different when you're there

2009-07-08T23:19:00.010+08:00

One day after

Oral was tough today. The conversation part was a killer. Haha and I can't understand why I actually said technology. Totally no link! I'm worried, cause I forgot to write my question number on the compo then now I guess I kinda screwed up my oral. Zzzzzz

Moodle. Totally lost. On history!
Lol.

shall post up part of my crazy double-clicking 'save as' process ^^

Ah thats Yoona and you know when ratna see my hair and she called me a Yoona Wannabee! LOL T_T

I totally love Eunhye's styles

I like hairstyles like this! Lol for me it looks better everytime you see it haha

Kekeke this picture is so cute kawaii aiyo the way the panda and songhyekyo looks at each other is so... cute cute cute.

Ah I'm too lazy to upload the others but haha I always fell into a good mood when I 'stalk' the korean artistes. Heh heh. And time passes very quickly! Timecheck... now is nearing 12am already!

I drank bubbletea for 3days straight. Sure sinful for such a fatty like me. Zzz

2009-07-05T19:28:00.007+08:00

Toho.. shinki.

5 people I will think of everyday

Credits: TVXQEvent

Shared by: 2uAngels

I listened a live version of 'Hug' recently, I like it so much,
I feel like sending it to all fans of Tohoshinki
Hahahahaha

Liking them has already become part of my character
Hahaha

Always the 5 of them together
Forever

2009-07-05T18:27:00.007+08:00

It's okay

So yesterday me and my family all went to get a hair change. Cute right hahaha. My bro's hair is the cutest among all lol! I had never thought he will have his hair done like that but I guess that looks cute and more unique!

And I finally caught up with Chupei and hehehe we talked so much, I feel so sad when leaving. How I wish we are sisters who live together! Hahahaha

Regardless of how many people telling me I looked better with longer fringe, this is the 3rd time I cut bangs and I really hope it will be the last time! Haha

Really screwed up when I tied it up but its a new change :)

In a world filled with hate, we must still dare to hope.
In a world filled with anger, we must still dare to comfort.
In a world filled with despair, we must still dare to dream.
And in a world filled with distrust, we must still dare to believe.

-Michael Jackson

He will always be a true legend.

2009-07-01T20:43:00.009+08:00

Maybe

I guess somethings are meant to be private. (:

Credits: EyesOnYou

I met Jw yesterday, and lol I think its pretty funny when people thinks that we have drifted apart long ago, even our coaches, but they never know we share our deepest feelings with each other hahaha.

We talked alot, and apart from many others, at least we're very true to each other.

Trust, we started off being frank and true to each other.

2009-06-27T11:04:00.024+08:00

GReeeeN 遙か

1 more day to school! T_T

Wellll I guess I have spend this week fruitfully somehow, cause I've been doing maths everyday, and I can feel myself at least moving forward instead of staying at the same spot. ^^ Then I realise I actually have more energy to do Amaths than Emaths! Lol I will lose my focus when I do emaths. Weird right lol.

Thursday was a good day, we're the group of act kawaii and fickle-minded girls (okay except one HAHA) It's a rare chance for the 3 of us to go out together, and thinking of days without them after Olevels makes me sad haha.

I think I totally went disgusting and spastic while having my salad and burger, oops hy did I make you lose your appetite? HAHA then I told hy that I lose my 'aura' when I'm with them and you know what the ass said?! "Isn't this your aura?" SUPER KL RIGHT SHE!

Another thing happened when we were all shopping, I was looking at the clothes rack , with a notice "ALL IMPORTED FROM KOREA", something like that.

Then a man walked in the shop and asked me if the clothes are made in Singapore or imported from overseas, then I replied so confidently to him, "Oh, all these are imported from Korea."
Then I remembered the man asked again 'Oh so these are from overseas la?', then I replied again very casually 'Yup they're imported from Korea'

And then I heard soft giggles coming from Cons and Hy! Then I realise I did something so retarded. I was mistaken for a shopkeeper, and still replied like I was really the shopkeeper! I feel so retarded and when I turn to the shopkeeper, she was smiling. T_T

Normally it should be the person who mistook a customer as a shopkeeper to feel paiseh right! but for me its different. =.=! Lol even now when I recall I really feel like a retard lol.

Bus ride back

the fickle-minded daiso ^^

GReeeeN 遙か
Watch this, it's really a very good video. Made me realise many things man

It's okay if you can't understand the Japanese conversation at the start of 2 mins, cus you will understand the entire story after watching the whole mv.

GReeeeN's music videos are great.

Some people say a new haircut, is somehow a new start, a new change for youself
This holiday is mentally tiring
Sometimes I feel like as if I can't see completely what's going on
Sometimes I feel sad cause they can't see my real feelings
Sometimes they're right

It's impossible to erase all of it away
but I'm glad cause I won't bear grudges
It's a stop,
for me to see what I have been missing all the while

Maybe it's a blessing in disguise
This is the way I choose to look at it
(:

Hmm I want a haircut haha