It was a bad day. I didn't know you wanted to eat dinner, and i didn't know what was initiative. I didn't bring enough money to buy dinner for you that day and somehow it was my responsibility. Then i'm sorry. About the phone thingo on sunday, i really didnt mean to say it, but i really wanted to watch the movie. Maybe it was my fault all along. But when i apologise, i really mean it from my heart. The weather was cold, so i wore another jacket out. I didnt know you have a whole chung of clothes to wash and iron. What's more, there's no space to dry the clothes and maybe they cant even be dry due to the weather. You screamed, you were so angry. Seriously, i didn't realise i actually changed so many shirts. Or maybe you washed them again. I don't know. I'm sorry. Really sorry. I know you were feeling tired and piss cause we don't understand and you were really feeling so damn upset inside. You said i'm exactly the same as him. For this, I really mind. She said we all changed. Towards the bad i guess. All of you were tired. I know. We three used to laugh till we fell down, we used to talk about the hot movies coming up and the great PSP games. Xbox were our thing then. You always buy sweet talk for me. I think thats called initiative maybe? You make me realise how cute dogs are. We were in the shop talking about it then. We always play like crazy asses, running after each other. But maybe that was then. Things are totally different now. Everyone has dreams. Maybe you are just doing what you really liked, and no one actually approved, given you any support.Disappointment, words that hurt so much. Siblings, we will always be. Concern. No one is right. I regretted. I don't remember what happened that night, i don't remember what you've actually said that made things changed. That was the past. Tears. Lets put it behind us, and just take it a lesson. Everything takes time. We grew up together, from small to big. Now. Im the only one still schooling. It just hurts so much, seeing things change so much and just falls out. Lets all forget it. If we can all understand what each other is thinking. We can. Time don't wait. Decisions. Sorting it all out. Responsibility. Taking initiative. Giving concern. Being more understanding. Loving.

Going back where we used to be.