Long post.


Okay I'm better now. So just now I was really very piss with myself when I can't find my handphone and I thought its in school so under this super sizzling hot weather I went back to 3E2 classroom and look for it. The answer was I can't find it. Miracle I didn't flare up in the classroom you know. Went back home and found out it was in my pencil case. HOW DUMB CAN I GET. Yes I really got this urge of throwing my books away.

I'm really not right these days huh.

Yesterday was the worst.
Of all the problems from vb, friends and expectations, I exploded.
At a VERY wrong time.

He will never know how upset I was feeling inside when he scolded me although I know I really deserved it. I wonder how my teammates could stand me yesterday, no skills and still dare to show a black face, wow. My attitude really sucked to the core yesterday until.. ya you will just feel like slapping me.

So to you all, I'm really sorry.
2 balls I can't even serve right. and it had been going on for the past matches, i really can't smile. What hurts even more was ZhouJL still reminded me how to service better before going to Hougang. I really feel like a complete failure, I let him down, and myself.

I don't know how to face both of them anymore, it seems like even sorry is not enough anymore, cause I have made both of them so disappointed, not only skills, but the attitude too.

He always hate it when people breaks down. I know. But yesterday was really the max already, can't control it anymore. It's really too much.

I think this is one of the most stressful things I have been through, I want to minimise my stupid mistakes, but it ended up of no use. How do it feels like, to get subbed out of the court in almost every match?

It really feels horrible.

I know I'm and I'm very blur and I can't even know a basic service properly,I really tried, but failed again and again. I really don't know how to 'try my best' you know. Cause I really feel so lost, like I really dunno what to do to make it right anymore.

Sorry to my team mates.
Yeap. Actions speak louder than words.
I won't give up.

I really feel like shit to cry in front of everyone, serious. I really felt so touched when San, Koh, Jan, Cerys came forward to console me, when I'm in the wrong. I don't even deserved to be consoled at all serious. But really thankyou so much I really don't know how to express my feelings out to you all but I really really appreciate it from my heart. It's like there's still people who will support and believe in me still, really thank so much! And I miss you so much Cerys.. After so long, I suddenly feel that no matter how lonely I feel from the team, there's always some mates, who care for me, thanks so much. I really feel so glad. I love you all!

And kohser mika, I'll never forget how you took a step forward for me. Thanks.. so much! I remember your words, lets work hard together!! I really want to play like her. Haha we have great tastes! :D She's really like Beam right! Haha I think of her alot of times sia! :DDDDD aha love mika.


Haha, for the first time, I don't feel better even after watching Tohoshinki stuffs.
Lol. I really want to be like U-KNOW, someone who knows the right things to do, even when times are tough and someone who has discipline over himself.
But I can't, lol.

I want to watch 3rd live tour!
I'm sure this one will make me damn high, haha.

Okay shall not continue too much lets see some pics

Tiger in Mdm Tan's car.
Thanks for wrapping my legs, really. I disappointed you alot too ba.


Mika with her secret weapons hahaha!


I really dunno how people could finish up the teh tarik sia!
Ranking: Janelle, Kohser, Me and Mf.
Janelle you very li hai sia! HAHAHA


Mika's smile haha! Spot the dirty marks!


Sengkang, in Jason's van. Thanks for the free ride, its nice! Haha


They can go and shoot SMS-ing commercial already, LOL!


Swinging with Hairy at night.
I remembered I laughed so much, haha.
I like Yuhua Village.

I like my mum alot. Did I change her? Haha! Cause I can open up to her about my problems now. She's really cute with her actions although she maybe rough, sometimes I think of the things she says, really can't help but laugh.

Last night I went to walk walk with her but I reached home really late so she waited for me and I said, " see i so good, accompany you go walkwalk." and she replied, " Ha, I will even walk faster without you!" Lol cute right.
Then when we were walking I told her to walk slower cause my legs were really sore and she replied, "WALAO SO YOUNG JIU LIKE THIS, I SO OLD ALREADY EVEN CAN WALK FASTER PLS", then she slowed down. Lol.
So I was telling her about my plans of going to Korea, and omgz the way she pronounced 'Korea' was really hilarious! It sounded something like " KOR LIAZ" Lol it was really funny when she said it herself.

And I realise her hands are really rough.

Finally! This sunday will be a outing of us with Peixuan, I'M LOOKING FORWARD!! ^^

tyybobo;

No matter how life gets,
even people i love are no longer the same,
i will still fight on :D

I can't keep being stuck there,
waiting for things to come back,
cause they have already move on,
and have already put down the past.

I will learn to accept,
and move on.

Things may be otherwise,
even though I still strongly believe in it.
That's life.

At least,
I didn't lose myself.

Yeappp,
I won't give up.
=D

I will get used to the changes.













Because of them, I learned so much in life.
Friendship, love, cherish, being understanding, giving in, courage.
and they always want to be in their best for their Casseopoeia.