Some pictures at coach's house during xmas eve.




Lol I look like I was bullying her and she seems to enjoy it HAHA~


diedie dont let they two take picture ^^


It's a bad morning today, zzz.
And I read news about wuhan, something about protesting against dongbangshinki =(
The truth is not even confirmed, and those people are launching a signature campaign, making a banner to sign on to protest against dbsk. Argh.
Sighs hope that Max and the other members are fine~ =(



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Don't put so much hopes on me, you may be disappointed to the core. It's not like I'm running away, or avoiding or whatever, but I just don't like people who are not even close to me to be asking so much. Be it rude or what, I just don't like it. If I can't make it, let that be my own problem. Yes, I know you're concern about it, I know, but seriously, I find it very very stressing. If I didn't say anything, it doesn't mean nothing happen or it's okay for me. Yes, I quit, it's my own choice, and since I have made the decision, I won't turn back. You can continue picturing me as whoever you want to, I got no more mood to care, but it's so not cool to assume me as this and that, when you don't even understand a bit of me. I'm not blaming you, just hope you can understand. I'm sorry to make you feel disappointed, standing beside you makes me feel so small. I know you maybe feeling upset outside, but I feel so much worse than you.

Thankyou, for trying to make me feel it's okay, but I know how you feel on the spot. Since then, I feel like as if I'm a disgrace to you. I'm sorry, I won't deny there are times I feel like giving up but I still continue trying and trying until sometimes I feel like a white elephant. I don't know what to say except sorry, but I feel so much more sorry for myself. I'm not making any excuses or trying to let you feel sympathy for me, no. Maybe I want you to stop asking about it, is because I'm sick of answering it and I'm tired of feeling guilty towards you and letting you, or rather you and them to look down on me. I have my own feelings too.

I know you got no bad intentions and you're a nice person, but please don't give me the disappointed look, it's not like I gave up or what. I know you don't blame me, but it so stressful. Maybe I'm just weak or I got a wrong attitude or I'm just not as good as others, I'm sorry. I don't need comfort from you cause you're not feeling good too, but just.. let me do things on my own, don't worry, I won't let you see me break down.

It's the result that matters most ya?