Little self-thoughts entry


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Seems like I've been using the laptop recently, that actually means I'm super lazy to get my computer fix. Haha super no mood. Bro says I'm lazy but want to surf net. Moodless or lazy or excuses? -.-

It really feels more complete having siblings, haha cause me and my bro can be super cheesy and childish in front of each other, totally normal. I guess if he's not my bro, he will be my bestfriend HAHA. He will be my best shopping partner (including constance a.k.a DAI) So recently I went spastic by singing any songs on my mind and you know he was really funny when he say the last thing I should do is sing. And he starts imidating my high pitch voice when I'm being gl. Damn hilarious. I really like things like this. simple sweet peaceful. Childhood (:

It was a really restless day today for me. I feel like an ass cause I can't help my group members much. It sucks when I actually need Hy to control my discipline. Says alot about my seriousness. And what sucks even more, is when I really want to help, I can't help much cause I don't have the ability to. Lol dumb right.

I guess i really have this problem of having serious moodswings problems. I'm very bad at controlling emotions. It's bad cause other people will be affected and I hate this. But some people only know how to look on the surface, they guess, they think, they assume, they infer but somehow they didn't get the main point.

Frankly, I feel sad when I see that.. because I'm really trying very hard.

Till sometimes
I don't know how to change how to stop making so many mistakes how to do things more sensibly how to make everything more complete

cause it's still hurtful in one way or another